I am really tired after a weekend of celebrating my dad’s birthday, having some drinks and chat with people.
The most heartbreaking thing was, that Aireen’s half-sister and niece came. Gina (Aireen’s half-sister, 9 years old) was sitting under the bench Andy and I were sitting on almost always. She licked my arm countless times and put her paws on my lap so she could lick my neck. I so wish that a) Aireen was still here or b) we could have a doggy. Since a) will not happen, there’s only b). However, before we know where we will move and when there’s no chance in getting a dog yet + we have no garden or anything …. 
Sorry I did not get to post any pics. I am always so busy these days. I have 5 more patterns to stitch and have 3 or more finishing ideas that I need to use on those patterns on. It is going to be great, I can promise ;)
Here’s parts of my latest design. It will be some more special finishes included, as this is my working field 
Nothing much else is going on. I am looking forward to finish this last class today (yep, Saturday … don’t ask) and then we will enjoy the holiday with the family. Snoopy will love the garden, so do we .. and play badminton.
For those who likes photos, I added some of Aireen to her gallery. She was such a cutey, wasn’t she? I miss her so much
I was in a bad mood earlier today with all the thanks, but no thanks sort of emails. I went to get Snoopy out and saw that I still did not plant Aireen’s flowers (forget me nots), so I planted them. I miss her very bad, and there’s nothing that is easing the pain even a little bit. I do hope that the Aireen’s Paws design will do ok, so her spirit will live in the hearts of many.
It snowed yesterday and is currently snowing. It’s a pretty sight and about time. We had t-shirt weather last week, this week snow. Crazy weather.
It makes me wish Aireen was still with me. She was crazy about snow. She’d run around and jump high to catch snowflakes
to all our friends and family. Hope you all had a great start in the new year.
Our new years was so sad and alas we did not take a single picture. I thought about going to be at 6PM. I did not do it, so my cousine, dad, Andy and I played some Uno to kill some time. We drank some bubbly with orange juice, cried, visited Aireen, watched the fireworks and went inside. Time spent outside: 10 mins. Last year it was well over 45 mins, but there was no point to not do it without Aireen running around like crazy and being happy about it :(
What else to say? 2006 was - except the mariage and getting a bigger place - a shitty year with an awful last quarter. Loosing two loved ones that were so close to our hearts within 3 months is just more than one should be able to be put through .. eventually the depressions will be better .. hopefully …
Hope you will all have a wonderful holiday. We did decorated the tree, I helped my cousine with maths, we went to see Aireen and Snoopy ran outside on the leash. I am stitching a bit and Andy’s playing games & co. That’s all …
Damm you servers. It’s been a pain in the *** the last two days. Hope it gets better soon. I am going nuts - no emails and no databases make Selina go crazy.
I spent some time doing an online grave for my little baby (Aireen). I miss her so bad. It’s to be found here. If you like to read what I wrote go to here and copy/paste the text. I tested it and it worked pretty nicely.I’d apreciate it if you leave some nice words for Aireen. Just go to “jetzt eintragen”, fill out the forms and then go on “vorschau” and then “jetzt eintragen”. Thanks.
Did not have a great night, as at 3 AM my stomach was going nuts. Not really fun, esp. when I just learned that this is when the deep sleep phase is supposed to be. Ah well.
I went to my parents, to go to the cemetry with my dad. My grandparents grave was nice and clean. Guess someone was there last night or in the morning. Was nice to be in a car for a while. Then, I went to my parents house just to leave to pick up my grandmom (she’s home and not in a care home one, as there are various problems). I do not think she’s in a too good condition, but still doing ok. I also went to say hello to Aireen. I miss her so much
Andy picked me up at the c-station and we walked home. After a little bit, it knocked on the door. It was the house owner to tell me details about the other apartment. We went downstairs, so I could see it. All I can say is WOW. It’s wonderful. It’s perfect. Very bright and lovely. A seperate bedroom, with a really big living/dining room. A nice kitchen and a nice bathroom - both still small, but surely an improvement. We need to get our own internet and telephone, but that will work out ok. Hoping to be able to have internet with the tv cable company, but will def. work with the telephone company. I told the lady that we’d decide until the weekend. No need to mention that we will take it. It’s so fine, it’ll be even nice after I finished school :)
I woke up happy this morning because I dreamt Aireen was still alive and happy, but reality got me quick Stinking start of the day .. ah well.
While Andy worked, I finished up the mail, got ready to go and then we picked the wedding pics. We headed off and then noticed that I a) forgot to take the list with the names of the pics we wanted and b) the exchange items. God. I hate days like that. Will have to jump to the post office and the photographer on Tuesday. Ah well.
We went out to buy some clothes for Andy and me. We now own three more shirts (for Andy) and one pair of pants and two sweaters (for me). + a pair of new shoes for old me that were on sale. When we got home, I checked under the bed to see what clothes I have down there. Turns out I have two more pants, 2 or 3 sweater, one vest and various other warming things. Ready for winter!
Here’s what I designed a while ago to stitch. It’s rather nice. I plan to stitch it on 28ct with one over one and one strand of floss. I am pretty sure it’ll come along wonderful. Now we need to think what else to add to the sampler.
and we spent the time inside connecting lines and stuff like that. Was partly boring as four ppl in front of one little laptop. No fun. I read a lot and did some other things. I took in my report from the working semester and hopefully it will be agreed on soon
Luckily it’s weekend now. I really need a break and some time for us. It’s also Friday so alas we’re married since 3 weeks. How time flies when you’re having fun.
It also has been two weeks since my baby passed away. I still miss her so much and there’s hardly any time I do not wish to hold or pet her. I so wish she’d be licking my hand until her tongue is all dry and it tickles - or that she’d follow me and lay around with me - or wathing my puzzles - or barking at cat noises DH will help me to design a memorial sampler for her over the weekend.
She’s really gone now :( No more kisses or hugs or petting your lovely soft fur No more having her company or playing with her. Her little body just could not fight cancer any longer the tumors just explode the past 2-3 weeks. There was nothing anyone could have done She did not have to suffer long.
She had a lovely last day. I talked to her in the morning. My mom cooked her a bone and was with her in the garden all morning. Then Aireen got to run on a field and was taking to the VET. She gave my baby a sort of valium pin prick to make her go to sleep while she was in the car. Mom told her how much we ll loved her and cares for her. After she fell asleep, they took her in the VET room and gave her the lethal injection. Two mins later she was gone.
Gone. Nothing is left from her. She slept and never woke up. She never even knew she was going to be dying. She was just having a blast and then it was all over without her knowing it. Her soul, heart and personality just disapeared in two mins. All that is left is a dead, minless and souless body. It’s so hard to believe that this is how life really is. One minute you see the most beautiful things, and then all is gone. Forever.
She was the most beautiful and clever dog one could ever thought of. Simply perfect. She was my sunshine on a rainy day. She was always there and always understood what was up. She loved being outside or taking naps while snorring. And she always found a way to cheer me up. Usually by running away when I was crying.
I do not know what I will do without you, my little baby doggy. Everytime I met you, you were happy to see me, no matter what I did or not. You loved me any way I was, and I loved you the way you were. I will miss you dearly
Aireen’s going to be put to sleep later today. Her tummy is all swollen and hard from the cancer cells. Her eyes are no clear anymore and she is not able to go up or down stairs anymore. My mom will take her at 3PM. I am not going, though I may regret it. I talked to Aireen on the phone earlier and will do so at around 1PM again. I do not really know what else to say or write. I am devastated
As this would not be horrible enough, my bike chain broke again right when meeting Vera and I fell on my butt (sort of). So no school to keep my mind off for a few hours ….
I did not touch a needle yet! Jeez, that must be record 
Need to start soon, though, so I even have a chance to get anything done.
I helped my mom to get our grapes down from their plants. There were so many!! It’s hard to believe. They’re all so tasty and yummy. If I recall right, they’re all Riesling grapes - the ones that make the wonderful Riesling wine, yummy. Here are some pics (please click on them for a bigger view):
I also took some pics of the most beautiful dog ever. They can be looked at here. I so wish her tomours would not grow so fast, they’re really giantic now She’s so cute and lovely At least she’s not really suffering.
