My mom lied to me
She said Aireen was fine and all was ok. Well, it is not. The cancer spread into her lungs
So she is getting really sick. I should have known better when my mom was up all night to hear if she coughs or not 
I also found out that my pattern did not go on sale yet - after 6 weeks. It was supposed to be sold at a festival (April 7th-9th). Unsure what to do now. It’s definately very disapointing.
There’s also still nothing new about the plane ticket issue
I hate hanging in the air.
I wish one thing would work out ok, so I could lift myself up on it. But there is nothing. I can’t need all those things a few months before the most important test of my life …



