Selina’s craft world

I wish I had gotten farer, but it just did not work out.

just finished the cross stitching part of the Elephant, now on the backstitching.

I spent about 150 bucks today on medicine, and still only got about 1/3 of what I actually need. This sucks so bad.

Also, I forgot to say .. the stomach will take 8 weeks to heal and then it’ll be an unknown ammount of time until the rest of me will be ok, too. Seems like I will be sick the rest of the year.

Just came back from the doc, and oh boy – it’s definitely the worst case scenario

I can’t eat about almost everything I like or can stand – no beef, no pork, no milk, no chocolate, no wheat, no bread, no fish (might never get to eat fish in my entire life), no eggs, no sugar and everything like chemical (like food colours etc.)

In addition to that, I am also having a lack of vitamins, hormones (now that explains having no period since god knows when) and various other important things. All my problems are coursed from this issue, too – mood swings, being restless, no concentration, stressed out, tiredness, weakness, joyless etc etc etc

The recovery process takes over 8 weeks, then I need to be tested again to see what I will never be able to eat again. If it does not get better, I am in danger of getting real bad sicknesses as being blind, bone pains etc. and heart problems - which is a very dangerous thing as I already had a heart surgery as baby.

That’s it from me. I need to cry for a while now
Oh boy. I am more than just down and depressed now.